I had my first DNS on Saturday, October 21, 2017. This was going to be my first 50K post Lupus. Even without a great training season, I was ready to see what the new me could accomplish. I had the perfect race planned, The Palo Duro Trail Run, in Canyon TX, practically in my backyard. The weather was supposed to be perfect conditions. I had a support team ready with encouragement and ice cold Nuun.
I am a desert rat, although I didn’t come by it naturally. I’m from north western Pennsylvania and my parents still live there. They are aging, as all people do, and not in great health but still live independently. Mom found out she needed a valve replacement and double bypass surgery. It was scheduled for October 17. Dad wanted me to come out a week after the surgery to help her get back settled and him with things around the house. Sounds good! I’ll run my race and 2 days later I’ll fly to PA to help.
Little did I know, I was about to begin an Ultra with an unknown distance and an unknown course, and one I was completely unprepared for.
Mom had some complications and dad needed me to come sooner. So instead of running 32 miles on Saturday I drove 360 miles to Dallas to fly to PA. I landed at midnight but still had an hour and a half drive to get to their house. I have spent the last 8 days at the hospital with mom. It has been up and down. She was released to rehab and then admitted to the hospital again. Like in any ultra there are times I’ve wanted to quit, pack up and go home. Then you turn a corner and have hope again that you can continue. Again, there are dark times, all I want to do was give in, let this thing beat me. But then you take in proper fueling and hydration and you get a second wind. I still don’t know how many miles are left. I don’t know what’s around the next corner. I do know that God promises He will never leave me or forsake me. He promises His love and that His grace is sufficient. He is faithful and trustworthy. So I press on, I persevere and I keep my faith.
He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Isaiah 40:29